Where I am at.....

It's been a long couple of days.

Barry agreed to move out of the Duncan house. He is staying at a friend's house, and the children and I have been back home since Sunday night. Barry asked for a "cooling off" period of separation. I wanted an immediate divorce, but have agreed to cool off and go from there.

I will be staying in Duncan. If/when we divorce, I am giving the Mesa house up to Barry. It's been an albatross around our necks for a long time. I wanted to unload it awhile ago, so Barry can have it. Duncan is my home. My family is here. My support is here. And the kids love it here.

I owe a lot of emails and calls. My phone is messed up. Barry cancelled my phone and then turned it back on. It hasn't been the same since. If you call me, you will get a message saying that the number is not in service. I, however, will get your call and be unable to hear anything you say. Text is working, so text me. Or email. I will get with everyone when I can. I have just been a little overwhelmed lately.

I am cleaning the mess that is my house today. Dishes hadn't been done since I left and there is laundry to do. Not to mention, unpacking everything I took to my mother's. Yesterday, nothing got done because I was at the Dr. I have an infected hangnail on my toe. And I had to drive the hour to Safford to the pharmacy. Wait time was an hour. Then the hour back. I was pooped when I got home, but I did do most of the dishes.

Where I am at emotionally is surprisingly good. This has been brewing off and on for years. The last year was good, but I wonder now if that was because Barry was gone for most of the year. Would it have been as good if we were together? He feels that the time apart was what brought us to this point.

I do not.

So there you have it.